Today.

Feeling very vulnerable at this point in the pregnancy.
I don't have the control that I would like to have and that drives me crazy.

I had my last monthly doctor appointment yesterday, just a usual visit.

But yesterday morning I woke up with a rash covering my entire belly. 

The previous morning, after I did my daily work out I noticed it, but I thought maybe it was just a heat rash - so I didn't think much of it. 

Like I said though, I woke up yesterday morning and it was all over my belly. 

After going to my appointment, my doctor had pretty much decided it was probably just a reaction to something new in my diet or household. Something new I had come into contact with. 

He said to keep an eye on it. Apply a hydro-cortisone cream to it and that it should go away in about a week or so. He then told me if it starts itching to call and make an appointment.

And also, if it spread anywhere to call and make an appointment.

Which brings me to today.

This morning I woke up and you guessed it..

rash covering my belly.my hands.the top of my legs. my chest. and my back.

So that was fun.

Of course I call the office and leave a message with the nurses station..

who calls me back after lunch. 

I then had to go in for a quick visit to do some blood work.

Thankfully I was able to see the doctor for a quick chat while I was there.

[ I've never been in an actual doctor's office before- one with a desk and family photos ]

I showed him just what was visible of the rash - aka my neck and the top of my chest.

So he then ruled out the reaction to something.

Which I already knew considering I'm not allergic to anything. 

So the blood work I did will come back tomorrow and I'm anxiously awaiting it.

The tests were to take a look at my liver function. Which sounds so scary to me. 

Of course I googled, and now I'm probably not going to relax too much until I get a phone call tomorrow with the results. 

My doctor did say that regardless of the results of the liver function, based on my previous pregnancy and this rash that we aren't going to make it to 40 weeks. 

He said max is 38. Probably closer to 37ish though.

Can't I just have a regular, normal pregnancy?

I'll go through anything for the wonderful gift we will have after it's all over- I just don't like the risks that come along with these complications - the risks for my little Haddie.

My family knows about this - but I haven't told anyone else. It's not something you will find me posting about on any of the various social media sites.

This is just a way for me to vent.

But if you do happen to read this, please say a prayer. 

Pray for strength for me. Strength for baby. & Strength for Joseph.

Pray for good health and good news.