I'll never forget the day I found out that you were growing in my belly. We had just moved into our new home & we were in the midst of unpacking boxes. That whole week I had felt a little unusual so I decided to take a test. And that's when I saw it, a little plus sign that represented your life.
We had been hoping & praying for you for months.
And now we had you.
We were full of excitement to be adding on to our family. We had so many questions and curiosities about how different things would be having 2 children. We wondered if you were a girl or a boy, if you and your sister would get along and be close.
We were nervous- would we be good parents and would we be able to adjust easily to the new family dynamic? Would you know how much we love you?
Then we found out you were a little girl.
We cried tears of joy and so did the rest of the family who attended a little gender reveal party we had in your honor. We were overwhelmed with excitement.
We were going to have 2 little girls to love and cherish.
You already had your name,
Hadley Catherine.
Our little Haddie.
[naturally, Haddie Cat]
We went to doctor's appointments and ultrasounds, all revealing what we already knew- you were perfect. In our eyes, no matter what you would've been perfect.
To see you on screen in your ultrasound was something I'll always remember. You would cuddle with your feet, bringing them all the way up to your face. In the pictures, you had such long arms and legs- you get that from the Turner side. The majority of the time you would hide your face from the camera, rolling away so we couldn't see you. There was one time, however, that we got a glimpse of your face. Your lips were absolutely perfect. You were cuddling with the placenta, just sound asleep. Sleeping so peacefully. I'll forever have that image etched in my mind. My perfect little girl.
You would always roll around during bath time & when listening to classical music, I think you enjoyed those as much as I do. I loved playing with you. You were always up for a good game of hide and seek. I would rub my belly and you would flip to the other side, then I would tickle you on that side and you would move to the other. You made waves in my tummy like I had never seen before. We would always watch wondering just what you were doing. There was so much movement that people could see you from all the way across the room. It was unreal and completely amazing.
I'll miss that feeling.
Your sister loved to put her hand on my belly and feel for you, never for too long, but long enough to feel you. She used to lay her head on my belly & you would kick her constantly, but she would just lay there. She knew your name. We would say what is Baby Sissy's name, 'Haddie' she would reply. Most of the time, she just called you Baby though. Ace got his loving in with you too. He would curl up as close as he could possibly get to you, he seemed very curious about you too.
I've been counting down until February. I cannot wait to meet you and find out all about you. I can't wait to watch you grow. I've been picturing how life will be once you arrive. Every time I imagine, I get the biggest smile.
I hope you and your sister become the best of friends. & I hope you grow together and learn from one another.
I hope you have your daddy's eyes & curly hair, but I hope you get my dark features.
I hope you love sleep as much as your parents and sister do.
I hope you love to play and have a vivid imagination.
I hope you find your own place and don't follow what others are doing.
I hope you know what is right and always try to do right by others.
I hope you smile & laugh constantly. They equal the best medicine.
I hope you have undeniable faith.
I hope you know just how truly loved you are. & I hope you know that no matter what, we will always love you.
I hope you learn that we are always going to be here for you. & I hope you're never afraid to come to us with anything.
I hope you dream wildly.
I hope you know how much all of your family cares about you. & that there isn't anything that we wouldn't do for you.
I hope you learn at an early age just how important family is. They're everything.
Above all, I hope you know that all we want is for you to be happy.
The closer we get to February the closer we get to you.
I cannot wait to meet you baby girl. I'm counting down and waiting patiently I can't wait to hold you and to look at you. I can't wait to see you look at me. I hope you recognize our voices and know that we have been loving you all this time and that our love will only grow for you. I'll be waiting baby, please come when you're ready.
Until we meet,
Your loving Mommy .
